Hello my dears,
So Hurry Honeypie, my first new release in almost two years, is out. I've had some lovely feedback so far, and I still don't hate the song which is something I often struggle with after releasing a thing I've made, so that's good!
The process of making any kind of art is so wonderful. I am at my most content and joyful when I find myself in a state of 'flow' writing a song. But the process of putting that art out into the world is pretty bloody tough. Having to promote your own work, for example in my case a song I've written, worked on, played live, recorded, gone back and forth with the producer refining the arrangement and then the mixing, then planned to release, then finally released... after all that, you sort of have to try and sell it to the rest of the world, and often find that the rest of the world is pretty indifferent to it. As musicians, we do this again and again, for years. Some of us find success, others don't. It can feel pretty disheartening to put so much of yourself into something, again and again, and not really feel like you're getting anywhere. And, at least in my case, it doesn't really get any easier with experience. If anything, it feels like it's getting harder.
I was thinking about all of this this morning, and found myself turning, as I often do, to one of the many wise, wonderful women I admire, in this case the author Elizabeth Gilbert and her TED talk
In the aftermath of experiencing great success with her book Eat, Pray, Love, she was surprised to find herself once again in the same position she had been in many years before when facing rejection and failure as a young writer. In both cases, she found herself being flung from her 'home' of writing. She describes 'home' as 'whatever it is that we love more than we love ourselves'. So, just as it had been all those years before, her job was to find her way back home.
“I will always be safe from the random hurricanes of outcome, as long as I never forget where I rightfully live.”
This, for me, is the answer. We cannot control the outcome when we put our art out into the world, but one thing we can control is where we build our 'home'.
So keep going. Success, failure, whatever. Just keep going back to the page, keep writing.
Keep going home.